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AMORY, SON OF BEATRICE
SPIRES AND GARGOYLES
THE EGOTIST CONSIDERS
NARCISSUS OFF DUTY
THE DEBUTANTE
EXPERIMENTS IN CONVALESCENCE
YOUNG IRONY
THE SUPERCILIOUS SACRIFICE
THE EGOTIST BECOMES A PERSONAGE

to the luxury of tears. Purposely he called up into his mind little 

incidents of the vanished spring, phrased to himself emotions that would 

make him react even more strongly to sorrow. 

 

"We were so happy," he intoned dramatically, "so very happy." Then he 

gave way again and knelt beside the bed, his head half-buried in the 

pillow. 

 

"My own girl--my own--Oh--" 

 

He clinched his teeth so that the tears streamed in a flood from his 

eyes. 

 

"Oh... my baby girl, all I had, all I wanted!... Oh, my girl, come back, 

come back! I need you... need you... we're so pitiful ... just misery we 

brought each other.... She'll be shut away from me.... I can't see her; 

I can't be her friend. It's got to be that way--it's got to be--" 

 

And then again: 

 

"We've been so happy, so very happy...." 

 

He rose to his feet and threw himself on the bed in an ecstasy of 

sentiment, and then lay exhausted while he realized slowly that he had 

been very drunk the night before, and that his head was spinning again 

wildly. He laughed, rose, and crossed again to Lethe.... 

 

At noon he ran into a crowd in the Biltmore bar, and the riot began 

again. He had a vague recollection afterward of discussing French poetry 

with a British officer who was introduced to him as "Captain Corn, of 

his Majesty's Foot," and he remembered attempting to recite "Clair de 

Lune" at luncheon; then he slept in a big, soft chair until almost 

five o'clock when another crowd found and woke him; there followed an 

alcoholic dressing of several temperaments for the ordeal of dinner. 

They selected theatre tickets at Tyson's for a play that had a 

four-drink programme--a play with two monotonous voices, with turbid, 

gloomy scenes, and lighting effects that were hard to follow when his 

eyes behaved so amazingly. He imagined afterward that it must have been 

"The Jest."... 

 

... Then the Cocoanut Grove, where Amory slept again on a little balcony 

outside. Out in Shanley's, Yonkers, he became almost logical, and by a 

careful control of the number of high-balls he drank, grew quite lucid 

and garrulous. He found that the party consisted of five men, two of 


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